Annoyed

Soo...BF has this cousin who recently put up a message on my FB page about "Congratulations on your little miracle".

All I could think off was - "Huh, lil miracle"? Bump wasn't conceived via IVF - it was/is all natural! What do you mean lil miracle?

I replied as such too - and she hasn't responded back .. the cheek of her..

The last thing I want ppl to think was that we were reproductively challenged. I mean, just because you got married and got knocked up in your early twenties doesn't mean we all want kids! I am happy we have Bump but in the meantime, don't assume and put us in a basket that anyone in their 30's cannot conceive without help.

Rant over.

RIP

To the 29 miners lost in the coal mine in Greymouth, NZ. God bless.

Life is short

I received some really sad news on Friday night.

A colleague of mine from back in KL had passed away -and from the news I've been getting, no one saw it coming.

She was only 39 - and leaves behind a young son of 2 and a loving husband.

She has battled breast cancer and was in fact suppose to have been cured, and the whole family had just come back from Europe where her husband comes from.

F.J.K - May you rest in peace. You will be remembered.

Reflections..

I took a long hard look in the mirror the other day - and I didn't see what looked back at me.

Blame it on age, or work stress, or my general non-caring ways ~ I look - tired.

My skin has lost its natural glow, its now shallow and pale under the foundation as cover.

My eyes have bags that can be seen from a mile away.

My hair now longer has a shiny lustre, it now has a permanent fly-away effect. Using of product and conditioner does more damage than good, I don't even know why I bother.

My nails are shapeless, even though I don't bite my nails. No point getting it done for a mani/pedi - it just last for 1 hr anyways.

My legs that were once my pride and joy are now scarred and bruised, and lets not even get me talking about my rotund middle now shall we?

Many a times I've contemplated doing something about it.. head to the gym perhaps? Or book myself into a nice facial. Get my hair washed and blown every week like I used to back in KL ... but do I? No.

What is wrong with me?

ZZZzzzz

Its 3:43 am and I am still awake.

Sigh.

Theft in the neighbourhood

Things have been up-to-my-neck-busy and to make things even worse, my car got broken into last Monday!

Fortunately, I don't really keep anything of value in the car *I can read the Melways hence never had a need for a GPS*. My coin compartment was still intact but the glove compartment was ransacked and due to frustration most likely - all of my service records, KM claim book etc was thrown all over the road.

The funny part is, I noticed the shatter from home and at first glance, I thought it was just ice as it was quite cold the night before but on closer inspection, it was a bit weird coz only the drivers side window was "icy" - the rest were fine. Went in for a closer look and *yeah*, the drivers side window was shattered. Being tempered, it was shattered - but as it was windy - all it needed was a strong gust of wind for it to smash into smithereens.

Oh well, ran around to get the police report run and finally with the help of duct-tape and a clear sheet of plastic, I was on my way to Bendigo - albeit a few hours late.

post note: My neighbours sisters car got broken into last Sun (exactly 7 days after mine was), and it was parked exactly where my car was parked the week before. The scary part is - she was only visiting and was away for all of 10 minutes. Thank God I'm moving.

Adelaide - again!

Uhuh - I am in Adelaide - a.g.a.i.n.

Awake at 2:10 EST - not good.

ETA to wake up time - 4 1/2 hrs.

The implementation isn't going as smoothly as expected - which isn't really surprising really. Having a site that has directors arguing and treating their own staff members like sh*t ~ shouting at staff in front of visiting consultants (i.e. me) - what type of impression does that leave me? What more, very embarrassed staff members.

Have already been told off by a senior partner due to no fault of mine - extremely frustrating.
Just have to grit my teeth and go through 2 more days of it.

I can, I shall, I will

$$$ blues

Have been feeling blue re: my current state of finances.

I get logged online to check my account balances and it is just too bloody depressing!

Am just wondering where is the cash trickling to? Its been quite a while since I've shopped (last major spree was back in KL during the Easter break) and most of my larger spend goes on the CC - so where does it go???

Its been that bad that I am resorting to jotting down every single cash spend so I get to know where it goes - sigh.

So far, my cash spend has indicated that the cash goes to:

1. My occasional cuppa mocha/skinny latte on the days I work from the office
2. Hot chocolate fixes during weekends

Thus, nothing fancy really... so WHAT THE???

On top of that, I have both the rego and yearly car insurance due early next month so there goes a big chunk of this months salary. There is also the other bills that I offered to pay this last month (as opposed to going halves) as BF has home content insurance and the body corporate fees this month.. I also have to transfer money home as my CC bill in due - it just keeps getting better doesn't it - not!

Maybe the reality that I am now paying mortgage is still sinking in. Yes, I am renting my place out now but the rent is not covering my full mortgage and I am still paying 30% of the mortgage and that is taking a chunk of what was savings.

BF sensed my doom and gloom and cheered me up buy getting me a pair of Calvin Klein jeans when we headed down to Chadstone last weekend and I got myself my tried and true Levi's (the mid-year sales are on now and we were just doing our bit for the economy - all on the CC of course) but that was only a temporary perk up and its starting to hit me yet again.

With the wedding looming, an impending house move on the same month and the expenses to keep the house in tip-top condition as we are selling our current place - it doesn't seem like I am going to see any substantial increase to my bank account anytime soon. :(

Stuck...STUck...stUCk...StUCK.. sTUCk

• Having to catch the red-eye to Adelaide at 7am - bleh!
• Having to wake up at 530 am to jump onto a cab at 6 am to get to the airport at 630 am for the 7am flight - double bleh!
• Seeing your flight being marked at CANCELLED when you arrive at the airport at 620am for the 7am flight - triple bleh!!
• Being told that the best available flight they can put you on is the 100am - quadruple bleh!
• Being stuck at the airport for 4 hrs (when you are suppose to be at the clients at 9am) - infinity bleh!

Can the day get any worse???

How is it going?

There has been lots of new going on's and I have not been updating as regularly as I should. Call it a writers block, or perhaps I have just been plain uninspired. The bottom line is, I have not really been in an update blog mood and it shows.

To start it all, am in a midst of a very difficult project. The clients are very demanding and to top it all off, I am having to deal with some internal red tape which entails having a "Project Manager" who doesn't know what she's doing. Most projects are taxing as it is but compounded by the fact that the PM is making the consultant do her job, well - any time I have for other client related work really becomes non-existent time. I have thankfully managed to get this under control after I had a meeting with my manager but still, the project is still ongoing and I have 3 or so months to go.

Work aside, the situation in VIC is rather dire with the bush fires making it all the more depressing. A death toll which currently stands at 180, total demolition of country towns - it is true what they say, it is during bad times that we can see human courage and empathy. I must say this about the Aussies tho, they really are generous - first during the tsunami appeal and now with this. I am amazed - for I know that it would never happen in Malaysia where ppl open up their already thin purses to help other ppl who are very much more in need than oneself.

As for Valentine's Day - seeing that BF and I were never were romantics anyways, we decided to donate to the Victorian Bush Fire appeal. The amount might be small, but it is our way of helping out to those who are less fortunate than us.

Out of my mind

Working from home can be such a bore at times.

I had some time to do paperwork scheduled this morning and this afternoon was a phone pre-implementation meeting but the client postponed the meeting to this Friday which leaves my whole day with paperwork!

Now - some might take advantage of the situation but seriously, there is only so much one can do before you go out of your MIND with BOREDEM!

I need to find something to do....

*bleh* update

This issue from work has really spoilt my weekend.

Even picking the Top 2 winners from yday's Caulfield Cup did nothing to cheer me up *yes - it was a facade - that update I had on FB*

*bleh*

In Adelaide, South Australia for the week.. and it has not been one of the good weeks. Unsolved server issues, deadlines and wrong expectations set by the CM's to the clients set the tone for the rest of the implementation.

Can't wait till I get back to Mel and for some decent time out.

Cheesed off *somewhat*

I'm feeling quite irritated - things that are somehow outside my control but yet, I know its because some mates mean well.

But seriously, the last thing I want at this point is ppl being getting rubbed the wrong way.


Will just stand back for a bit to see how things go - 11 more months to go and the issues are cropping up already!


Off to Adelaide for a day trip on the red-eye. Work stress really isn't helping in this situation.Can't wait for the break!